Mad but lazy day

Well i had planned to be in the garden most of the day putting the plants in i bought yesterday, but time has just flown and by the time i had finished at ikea and abt 5 other shops the hot sunny day turned to rain and thunder storms. The evening was taken up by cooking my first chilli and by the time i had finished that washed up had a bath it was too late to do anythingIts 11:55am ive not long sat down to check email facebook blog site ect then it will be a list of things to do tomorrow, i just wish there was more hours in the day at the moment.

Plenty of fish Dating

As ive given up with dating site i get message to say someone wants to meet me, which i thought at first omg someone actually likes me and got that really excited feeling. Then straight away i then think whos setting me up, this is me here, no one has ever approached me or showed interest so something is wrong, theres a story line on Eastenders at the mo where someone is being set up which sprung straight to mind. The lady looked nice probabaly too nice for me which again made me think this is a wind up. The feeling that someone wanted to meet up was nice while it lasted, but would probably end up being my brother or his kids.

Good Good Friday

Have had a really nice day today weather was great went out with me mum first we had a trip around every charity shop in beeston something ive never done before but will be doing again, there was so many things at bargin prices i ended up with a small cat and half a dozen cook and gardening books. We went on to a couple of garden centers something i do this time every year to buy loads of border plants, then a quick trip to Asda and home.It was so nice to spend some time with my mum doing something we both enjoy.

tags: good friday

First walk down local nature reserve this year pity it was empty

Some pics from Attenborough Nature Reserve

Even mummy duck wasnt interested in having a family pic taken

The only swan i came across normally theres hundreds maybe they have a bank holiday to

There was plenty of cars in the car park but few people about weird

Even the bird feeder was empty i was starting to think they all new i was coming

tags: Attenborough nature reserve

HOTTEST DAY OF THE YEAR SO FAR

Got to have been the hottest day this year and a really nice weekend forecast

tags: weather

Nice Day again

Not only a nice day weather wise it was nice for the family to come round and help out, my brother and dad shifted some beds for me, my niece Jodie not only watered the plants the garden and the cats she felt she needed a shower to. I think i manage to get a cup of tea out of my brothers girlfriend to, all in all a great day.

My Dad Me Geoff and Dawn

Jodie having a shower and deciding we all needed one to

Jodie soaked

New Health Blog Page

Ive started another blog page called cookies health, this is really a diary to check my progress as i hopefully start to lose weight again and start to exercise, but as i mention in the pages header if it helps just one person saves one life or get someone to lead a healthier life by dieting or exercising then it will be all worth the time.
http://cookieshealth.blogspot.com/

Thanks to my brother Geoff my Dad and Keith

Just wanted to thank my dad brother for helping me (doing all the work while i watched) bringing two single beds to mine and to Keith for letting me have them, they will come in very handy for when the nieces stop again and i will get my bed back.

To much to soon

Iam now thinking maybe ive pushed myself a bit to much with the brisk walks and going twice, i know it didnt feel right at the time but pushed on even when feeling dizzy, maybe need to rest tomorrow and not push it too soon

Dating Sites

Its funny i decided to give up looking for a partner today and going on dating sites in the hope i might find someone, now ive remembered a big reason why i wanted to meet someone, its for times like now when you need to talk to someone or not feel so alone. To say iam shit scared is an understatement, i have a routine now when i feel like this i open the door in case anyone needs to get in and i put my phone close by just in case i need to call someone asap, then i wait until it passes

tags: dating, alone

Scared

2:40am have to put this just in case anyone with heart problems does view, feeling a bit frightened tonight shaking a bit and daren't sleep at mo, i get this sometimes because i may have a pain or twinge in chest or arm and as i had heart attack in my sleep i just feel frightened to drop off. It times like this you just want to talk to someone and it always happens in middle of the night when everyones asleep. My family and lots of friends and neibours have said call at anytime which is dead nice but not fair. I just have to ride it out or tap it out in this case theres nothing worse than just lying there waiting for something to happen.

THANK YOU SO MUCH

Just want to say many thanks to those who helped me get to 1000 page views its now up to 1061

tags: pageviews

BACK TRACKING ALREADY

I know this sounds so weak and iam back tracking already on day one but as ive just been reminded on facebook, not only are we comming up to a double bank holiday and easter as well as a Royal Wedding and St Georges Day i think its a really bad time to diet and cut out the wine. Normally i would do it just to prove a point, but would sit in grumpy so as they say hey you only live once, it did me in last year listening to everyone commenting on what a nice bbq they was having i could even smell next doors all weekend and people saying how great easter is while i was having friut an crap.
Sooo i will put off they stopping drinking and diet for a couple more weeks so i can enjoy myself, but i will try to keep the walking up

WEIGH IN 17 STONE 108 KG

After weighing in at 17 stone (108kg) today  ive decided to diet again, in jan 2010 i was 19 stone (120.7kg) and by dec 2010 managed to get down to 12 stone (76kg) it has gradually crept back up since christmas and i am now the same weight as this time last year so need to put a stop to putting on the weight. My target will be to get to 12 stone again by dec 31st and this time not to treat myself so much over christmas, i do however blame a lot of it on the shock i had with the blocked arterys and the eating and drinking that came with it. Ive now got to get a grip and start over and not let this beat me after all ive got two good arterys now instead of just one.
I may even start a new blog page to show how i am going with the diet and exercise just to keep me going and keep me from using bored.com

tags: diet, dieting, overweight, exercise, bored, bored.com, blog

TURNING POINT

After having heavy night on the wine friday night and losing most of Sunday with it ive decided today is time to stop and get fit and lose weight again. Its nearly 3 weeks since op and iam just able to walk half a mile in about 10 minutes without pain which i will increase over the next few weeks. Ive decided (which seems mad a week before easter) that there will be no more chocs or wine or fatty foods.

tags: diet

Weather great but iam not

Its a fantastic day weather wise sun is out and as Buddy said theres not a cloud to spoil the view, but guess who cant go out there and get his jobs and garden sorted. As mentioned yesterday its only been two weeks since op and ive only just started slow walks with little pain, it doesnt make me not want to get up and go, i really am itching to get out there.
I know my problem is not serious and i will be 100% soon but it has made me think a lot about those people that are house bound and who can never get out or need to rely on others to take them out, i really dont know how they cope mentally.
I should really stop banging on but there is little else to do at mo except tap away on the keyboard and i have said i want to do this not only to use as a diary but to let other people in same situation know what to expect and to know there not on there own. The highlite of my day is to count the page views which iam sure are mostly mine and to view the comments which there are very little if any, but it wont stop me going on. Iam up to about 950 page views it would be a dream to get to 1000 even if 999 are from me

Fitness

Went ok at hospital today enjoyed it and learnt a bit just need to put it in to practice now. Its mad ive just looked at calendar and its only two weeks since last op it feels like months ago i really want to get back to full fitness back in the garden and back to work. Ive managed a 15 min slow walk tonight and not in too much pain, i will keep this up for a few weeks until doc says i can start to do full work out again.

WEEK TWO OF DIET AND EXERCISE COURSE

Just sitting around waiting to go on the second weeks course for diet and exercise, enjoted it and took plenty of notes last week, hope it all sinks in. I will end up having my own diet as i think i know what works for me, regarding the exercise i cant wait to start again just for that natural buzz. Its so frustrating having to sit in and not be able to do anything except tap away on the keyboard.

THE MASTER PLAN

The plan once i return to work full time and can start exercising again is to get myself fit and the weight down again, last year i went from 19 stone down to 12 and am now back up to 16 stone, it wont happen so quick this year but i will get there eventually. I have just started walking again without too much pain so feel positive this is the start to recovery. I certainly want to cut down or maybe even stop the drinking again if only to stop giving my facebook friends grief, the next step and hardest for me will be to quit smoking this i know i will find very hard to do but i really want to get over that final hurdle.
I am thinking about yet another page to link to my blog to keep track of my weight and exercise hopefully to spur me on (and give me something to do while iam off work). I am also thinking of a campain to press for people to get tests for unblocked arterys as many of my friends know i spent a year having tests and being told i was ok and my heart was ok, no tests i had showed that two of my main arterys were blocked, to me something needs looking at. I am fine now but how many of you can say the same about yourselves your parents and your children, how many have seen the advert about smoking when that white gunk comes out of a smokers arterys, that dosent just happen with smoking that happens over a period of years bit at a time it builds up if you carry on eating crap and you cant say you wasnt told its on the radio and tv all day telling you to eat five a day and exercise if only for 20 minutes. I dont eat cheese now and havent for a year, how many of you have had pitza or given it your kids in the last year how many of you will be eating sausages and burgers this summer how many have you had in a life time. If your the same age as me you really need to look into what you are eating and the exercise you do, i was lucky i survived will you?

ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY

After splitting up from the girlfriend having a heart attack and going bankrupt all in the first quarter of 2010  and then after nearly a years rehab for heart attack and then finding out i have two blocked artterys because i went private instead of using NHS.The problems then began i started putting on the weight i had lost (7 stone) smoked more, started drinking heavy and to top it off i wasnt and still am not allowed to exercise which gave me a natural high. Dont get me wrong iam no saint and there are people out there a lot worse than myself. I dont want sympathy i want encouragement help and friends, what i have found is far too few people talk about the problems in life (i would include myself in that), the first thing i want to do is get myself back on track starting later on this year and i want to share my ups and downs in the hope that one day it may help someone else as well as myself. I want to thank my friends and family for the help and support they have given me and i do mean it when i say sorry for putting you all through it, but i can honestly say this experience will change my life for ever for the better, LOTS OF LOVE TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS XXXX and Thankyou

JODIE AND JEMMA

It was lovely to have the nieces stay over for the first time this weekend, think i need to be a bit more prepared next time, but really enjoyed there company

TIP OF THE MONTH

Going against one of my ocd rules i opened a pack of peas the wrong way round, i would suggest to avoid making a mess you dont try try at home

THANK YOU JULIE

THANKS FOR POPPING AND GIVING ME A WELL OVER DUE HAIR CUT XXX

tags: haircut

Gutted

Finally went for second artery to be unblocked last weds and it didn't go well, they decided to stop after saying the walls were too badly damaged and after causing a hole that let fluid leak into the sac that surrounds the heart. I have to go back in today jut to make sure fluid has gone. My only option now is to have the artery replaced which involves cutting the rib cage, after speaking with the doctors i am going to leave this until later on in life, in the mean time i will have regular checks to make sure the other two main arteries stay clear and do a monitored rehab

tags: heart.