Gona have to be honest cos thats what this is all about as ive said before its so hard to put stuff when ure low but thats the whole idea, to show an record everything.
Had a rough weekend cos drinking again 3 wine last night an on third tonight, it seems i have to drink to be happy at mo which is so different from last year. Facebook is the only thing keeping me in touch with outside world at mo, iam so glad i wont of to spend my life house bound like so many people this has really done my head in. I cant stress how much i wanna get out an exercise again even walk, but my left groin/thigh is still playing up, ie really painfull. Ireally really want my life back again. The stress control classes on thurs are great but still dont allow me to do something simple as a 20min walk without being in pain. Mentally god knows iam not happy with the drinking but hope it will stop when i can exercise again and be back at work full time. I did a silly thing last night an fell for someone straight away because she said the right things to me, i know iam not mentally an physically ready for a relationship yet or maybe for the next 5 years, but it made me feel great and a kid again, is that wrong.Anyway lifes for living wheres that next bottle. If iam gona be honest i felt great last night an feel really shit tonight maybe full moon tomoz or too much wine who knows
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