Up an down an round an round

As this is first full week back on half days iam still trying to get use to early nights and getting up earlier than normal. Works been great an its good to be back, still cant walk far at mo but hope its gradually getting better, at least anyone who is gona have the op will no roughly how long the pains last, i spoke to the doctor again this week an he said it could be up to 8 weeks which is next week before pains go away. On the bad sise got to wait 3 months before full exercise with weights ect which will be begining of July i just have to let nature take its coarse then go mad.
Couldnt sleep the night before last had a lot on mind so wrongly again turned to the wine to help me last night, my problem at moment is i dont know when to stop, i realy have got to cut down i keep teeling myself to wait now until i get fully fit, but i really souldnt be doing it in the week.
All in all i feel top of the world at the moment tons better than the weekend iam gona blame it as always on the full moon. Regarding the person i spoke to fri eve she has talked to me again which has lifted me more than any tablets could do she makes me feel fantastic but not said a lot so i dont know why i feel like this, the thing that really scares me is that i know i can get that sinking shit feeling just as quick if things go wrong, i know its part of life an you have to get on but i feel ive had my fair share of them shit feeling days an wana stay happy. Ive actually got to a stage where i think about her all day and night and cant wait to see if shes been in touch an feel dead happy if she has an down he she hasnt i really dont like this control she has and the poor girl has done nothing except a few nice kind words.I know its me an i have to control it somehow but unless you in this situation you wouldnt have a clue how hard it is to try and back off someone you have feeling for and the really weird thing is ive not even met her yet and would probally shit it if i ever had to.
There is one more thing going offat the moment but not sure how to go into that i really dont want to while iam feeling this good.